If I add up all the amount, it is about 14k. 14k for a year and a half. And can you believe, I'm not the one who spend all 14k. Crazy! Yeah, crazy and stupid because letting other to handle the amount. Thing that I regret most in my life.
Although I need some money, I never ask from that person even if that is mine. Such a fool. What do I do then? I earn my own cash by joining rewards club. Till now, I still active in making money.
There once, I get 4.5k. I just take 1k. And the balance I give to that person. Half of it I save it in my 'pocket' and half of it I spend it - wisely. Soon after, I mean in two month I think, that person ask for 0.3k. That person said, 'I lost my card. I need that amount to pay something'. And once again, I did the same thing by giving the person that amount.
When I reflect on what I have done, I'm so stupid.. because in the end, I'm all alone. Everything that person promised me is fake. And the worst, that person is missing now..
'Whatever happen in the future, I will pay you back.. I'm promise.' This is what that person is saying long time ago.
Because of love, I believe those word. Because of love, I give everything. Because of love, I lost everything. Because of love, it is hard for me to put trust in people. And because of love, I through all these things ALONE..
But, Allah is a planner. There are some reasons why I have to walk in this path.. Even sometimes, I did mad at Him.. asking Him why must He put me in this trouble because I'm not strong enough to through this.
Now I understand why He put me through so much pain.. because He wanna give me this beautiful rainbow which I can see it today..
Although I need some money, I never ask from that person even if that is mine. Such a fool. What do I do then? I earn my own cash by joining rewards club. Till now, I still active in making money.
There once, I get 4.5k. I just take 1k. And the balance I give to that person. Half of it I save it in my 'pocket' and half of it I spend it - wisely. Soon after, I mean in two month I think, that person ask for 0.3k. That person said, 'I lost my card. I need that amount to pay something'. And once again, I did the same thing by giving the person that amount.
When I reflect on what I have done, I'm so stupid.. because in the end, I'm all alone. Everything that person promised me is fake. And the worst, that person is missing now..
'Whatever happen in the future, I will pay you back.. I'm promise.' This is what that person is saying long time ago.
Because of love, I believe those word. Because of love, I give everything. Because of love, I lost everything. Because of love, it is hard for me to put trust in people. And because of love, I through all these things ALONE..
But, Allah is a planner. There are some reasons why I have to walk in this path.. Even sometimes, I did mad at Him.. asking Him why must He put me in this trouble because I'm not strong enough to through this.
Now I understand why He put me through so much pain.. because He wanna give me this beautiful rainbow which I can see it today..
Forget the past...remember the lesson and believe that everything happen for some reasons my dear :) Ganbatte!
ReplyDeleteyea i will.. but hutang tetap hutang kan.. :)
Deletethat's a lot of money. You can pay for a down payment on a house. I hope you make enough noise to urge the said person to pay it back. Maybe you're blinded before, but not now. Good luck, I hope you get your money back.
ReplyDeleteblinded because of love and put too much trust in that person. That's my big mistake.. Yea, I hope I get my money back too but the prob is, dia senyap diam membisu..
DeleteI bagi you idea, start with threatening to out her to her family. I know it sucks to do this but 14k is a lot of money. tell her unless she pays up in full you will out her to her parents. her bad behavior ought to be known by others.
Deleteyea i know.. but tak sampai hati la to do that.. huuuu
Deletebeen there. yeah it sucks a lot. specially when that person dumped u when they cant pay you. worse, when they put the blame on u, tortured u, threatened u as if you're the one who owed them. now im still scraping here and there just to pay for the loan that person left behind. lesson learned, love DOES cost a thing... lotsss!!
ReplyDeleteseems that we are in the same situation. but in my case, i dont need to pay any loan.. just waiting money from that person.. Nway, be patient. Hidup dia takkan senang punyalah..
Deleteactually i find out that she did live happily ever after, with new gf. cume xtau la sape tanggung sape skrg.. haha... tp dh malas nk pikir. buat sakit hati je kan. ^__^
Deletelife goes on~
oh yeke.. takpe, biarkan jela dia tu mia.. as u said, life goes on. so, u should move on and never ever looking back at her.. enjoy ur life n be happy! :D
DeleteHaha. Aku nak like xd button like. Kaya jugak ko ni.
ReplyDeletehaha pasaipa ko nak like.. hishh!
Deletexdela kaya pun.. biase2 je :)